I went on a road trip this weekend and to pass the time I brought along the CD collection given to me by my sisters in Christ of the Holman Christian Standard Bible. As I drove I reached over and slid in a CD marked Ecclesiastes to Isaiah and began to listen.
As the CD played it came to Ecclesiastes 1:18, where it is written “For with much wisdom is much sorrow; as knowledge increases, grief increases.”
This remained on my mind for some reason, mainly because I was trying to understand why wisdom and knowledge, things that are so cherished by mankind and all of creation, would bring sorrow and grief. After all, was wisdom not what Eve and Adam wished for and why they disobeyed Father to partake in the forbidden fruit?
Two days later I returned home and signed online and visited a blog-type site where I have posted some of the articles I’ve written for the newsletter. A comment had been posted by a reader on one of them and with that comment came a better understanding of why wisdom and knowledge bring sadness and grief.
That evening, while in prayer and meditation with Father, my thoughts turned back to this person and their comment and their lack of understanding. In my prayer, I told Father how sad I felt for this person. Sad because they were clearly lost in the darkness of this world – the world of Dawn Lucifer’s making.
Jeremiah 13:17 But if you will not listen, my innermost being will weep in secret because of your pride. My eyes will overflow with tears, for the LORD's flock has been taken captive.
Perhaps I began to see things through Father’s eyes because Father is wisdom and understanding. Even now as I write this article my throat constricts to keep at bay the tears that want to emerge from the depths of my heart. I feel Her suffering which must be much like the suffering of a parent who loses a child; only for Her it would be magnified a thousand times over because it’s not only one child but many, many children.
Psalm 10:14 But You Yourself have seen trouble and grief, observing it in order to take the matter into Your hands. The helpless entrusts himself to You; You are a helper of the fatherless.
Father is love. It cannot be an easy thing to watch those beloved children of your creation become trapped in the snares of your adversary. She is also long suffering, as She has seen trouble and grief. But as it is written in the above scripture, “seen” also means to have experienced it first hand. She saw it through the fall of her angelic children, through the sacrificial death of Her beloved son Christ Jesus, as well as through the loss of Her children of mankind. Furthermore there is the sorrow and grief that She must feel in knowing that Her wrath must soon come and more loss of physical life and eternal lives will follow.
Lamentations 3:48 My eyes flow with streams of tears because of the destruction of my dear people.
As Her servant I want to do more for Her because I love Her with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. I want to bring Her children home to Her so that She does not have to experience this sorrow and grief. In the same way that She wants for my own happiness, I want for Hers because Her happiness is my own. The nourishment via knowledge and wisdom that I have been blessed with via Her Holy Spirit have brought me happiness but they also bring me sorrow and grief because I now better understand that the truth by which I stand is a double-edged sword. The sword of truth can save a life but it can also take it away. And because She wants Her children to come to Her via their own free-will, neither She nor I can force anyone to recognize the truth for what it is. I can only follow Her commandments and pray that I serve as an example that allows Her light to shine through me as a beacon for the lost.
My prayer is for them and it is also for the fulfillment of Her will and vindication of Her Holy name, so that one day soon these things will pass away. And in doing this, I have only done my duty
Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will exist no longer; grief, crying, and pain will exist no longer, because the previous things have passed away.